Melbourne

Fuckin smashed it at work today.

Cheers 🍻

Had the meeting with HR today. Thankfully it was someone who I chat to casually about things and helped me with some personal matters.

Wanted a recount of what I had been through and all the steps taken and how the end result ended being what it was.

Wanted to know if I was supported and a number of other things that I’m failing to recount now.

Also chatted about my stress enlightened me to what I could use my personal leave on and will get back to me on the technicalities of when and what I can use it for but apparently she has the power to authorise some of the leave so I’m waiting to find out the details.

Also did my shopping, was pretty busy thanks to Black Friday sales.

Also I have acquired pizza! 🍕

Thank you everyone for you encouragement, kind thoughts, and good vibes!

I 100% was catastrophising - it's much easier than I thought 😭😂

I cannot thank you all enough, I will try to think of a way to pay you all back for every thing you have helped me with!!! 💜💜💜

A friend of mine had her grandma pass away in an accident. I want to be there to support her. I can be there to listen and check in with her, but not sure what else to do. I sent her an Uber gift card so she can get some food because I don't know where she lives and she's very much in grieving mode not wanting to talk to anyone. I hope that's something.

Was there an appreciation week this week that I missed?

Pizza, Strawberries and bok choy being previous ones.

Given the likely weather over the weekend, maybe think about doing essential laundry tomorrow. I will be doing just that.

One more day to go. Come on!!!

Went to look for my WWCC and in the process, I found my student ID cards from high school, my learner's permit, cards from high school friends, a Qantas plane model I got for Christmas one year, and a mini whiteboard with a flowchart about anxious attachment. But no physical card.

Going to use the digital one.

Qantas plane in question.

So you guys know those dark grey paving tiles they use in the city? You guys also know how they become slippier than a slip n slide when it rains? I've found something even worse... Some idiot decided to use those as the flooring in the shower at the hotel I'm staying at... 🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️

It's not that bad to start with, because feet (or at least mine) are generally grippy enough, but once you add a bit of conditioner, or hell, even just body wash, it basically becomes a how still can I stand? game. They Ldo only uses the absolute slightest angle to the drain, and used one of those teeny tiny drains at that, so it does pool unless you make an active effort to get water to flow to the other side and push it down the drain

My shower at home sucks too, but isn't quite that bad. It's got a steeper angle to a wider drain, and I have one of those shower heads you can grab off and move about, which makes it a lot easier to wash things down the drain. Even so, I have a non slip mat, and leave the door slightly ajar so I could catch myself on the towel rail if I slip. Here there's just about nothing. Couldn't even use the tap because it's kind of recessed into the wall

I was meant to do uni stuff today but I felt like crap in the morning, decided to unpack some more boxes and then went to pick up food in St Kilda - came back to have lunch with the intention of going to uni after but cripes... I need a lie down and a nap. I can't go meet my friend for dinner otherwise. I'm just going to take it easy and hopefully start early tomorrow morning instead.

Anyone know why all lollies are Lifesaver branded these days? Did they acquire another company? Lifesavers used to just be those round hard lollies, now they're everything

we keep going down and admiring the wonderfully new repointed garage. eeeee

Glad I had the lie down/nap but still feeling kind of out of sorts. Like the precursor to a cold or something. Ugh, I hope not.

I have at least bought the s hooks on the way to my friend's place and hung up some pans just now, that's opened up a bit of space. Still not sure where to put certain pantry items so that I don't forget they exist. There's space I could use towards the back of the cupboards but then those items will be invisible. I'll need to create an inventory and put it on my fridge, I think. So many dals and lentils to use.

Phew ol' ladies bloods done (there was refusal there but needed to happen).

Guessing there are going to be wild abnormal results.

But on the plus, ol' boy and I were cutting concrete with an angle grinder next to the clothesline, dust everywhere, and she cracked the shits so that's back to normal.

Unfortunately we missed sunrise and are about 11 hours from sunset

Bringing back the sound of summer

https://youtu.be/OfaL89h1jqY

I don't wanna work, I wanna look up hotels. Reminding myself that working means I can pay for said hotels. Gahhhhhhh.

Just had a spew due to anxiety. Christ in a cream cheese sauce.

Actually stressed AF about these last two assessments, but it's fine. I have an extension to Monday night, so I can go in to class today and smash them out over the weekend. I have this mighty fear I'm not good enough, that I wasted my money because I'm a terrible person. But I know it's just my depression and fears.

Been trying that technique of "but what if I pass?" instead. But man, those depressive pathways are such an easy road ugh!

I don't think I ask for much, but I would really appreciate some good vibes I think. 😭🙏🏼

So a job that sounded really promising called a couple of weeks back and said "sorry, you are great, but we've found someone with industry experience, we'll call you if anything changes" (not exactly a niche industry), but I've just seen that the role has been reposted a week later.

Would you reach out the HR contact you've been communicating with and ask for further feedback regarding your interviews or just leave it? Wondering if there's a way I should be bettering myself that I haven't seen that they could point out (other, than, ya know, all of me), but not sure I should. I suspected by the end of the interview I was possibly being too informal/relaxed because it was such a good interview and I was feeding of their energy.

I like my manager, she's this cute Greek mum that's worked here for 20 years. I'm backfilling her role as she moves up into an acting position, so she's done all the work I'm currently doing.

That's why I don't mind if I'm on a call with her where she's trying to figure something out, you can tell she's always trying her hardest.

Had iodine contrast this morning, and it did NOT make me feel like I'd pissed myself. I would request a refund if it wasn't bulk billed, but I might just piss myself for real in protest.

Almost Friday. So, so close now.

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